Friday, March 30, 2007 at 1:17 AM

a long a long time ago i had a very good friend she was the first to tell me not to cry when i was bawling away in the hall it was the first day of primary school she was sitting in front of me, not crying at all she held my hand and we became friends things become more and more complicated when i grew up how many true friends i have? 2 hands i can count all bahx i dun deny that i am afriad i dun deny that i have my insecurity but seriously who really noes me? i put on a different mask when i face different people when i face different situations i doubt no one really really noes wad i feel inside seriously sometimes even i myself dunno u noe i keep hearing things like if u have any problems, u will always tell it to ur best friends cox they will listen to ur woes, worries and help u find solutions den it set me thinking how long have i cease confiding to a friend truthfully its like eons ago bahx somehow along the way i tink i lost my trust on that le somehow hurtful as it is i will jux keep my worries to myself i am jux a insecure girl yupx thats wad i am *imissyou*

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Thursday, March 29, 2007 at 5:09 AM

argh no work cox me to be able to make myself sleep late >.< jux finish 'It Started With A Kiss' episode 4 i so dun wan to sleep :p but my mama wake up le xp guess i dun have a choice hahax nitey :D *imissyou*

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Wednesday, March 28, 2007 at 11:09 PM

Sensitivity, u have none - me haix been waking up feeling lost 1st apr coming should i apply uni?? i dun feel like i dun wan to but i feel insecure you noe like if i never apply i will regret my brain wants to apply my heart dun wan rawr* they are at war with each other >.< focusing on my blogshop nowadays checking emails finding business buying new things LOL when i am down i go towards retail therapy but den for now it didnt really make me happier yet haix wad the hell is wrong with me? i am like lost again its like once i am jobless i got nthing to put my mind into den i will tink a lot den feel sad a lot haix i procrastinate too and hold things for as long as i could i feel... i dunno how i feel.. jux u noe bad.. haix tml will be quite a busy day bahx going back to office to get my final pay and all den meeting jinchang to go town that guy got topshop voucher sia i gonna ask him split LOL transport fees are ex lo :p looking forward to going out and have some fresh air :D its a hot humid day and it only worsen my mood haix *imissyou*

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Monday, March 26, 2007 at 7:23 PM

Patience is a virtue, or is it jux my downfall?? - me was actually very pissed off a while ago cox i took a train from BB to Tanah Merah going the extra mile to sell off my stuffs cox i felt bad that i had to cancelled ytd meet up but den instead of being punctual the buyer was freaking late and i really meant late 1 hr late!!!! ok i arrive 15min early but 45mins of waiting!!!! pure torture moreover she dun update me with her whereabouts and dun reply smses so i got to call her up everynow and den lucky i have my ipod and book with me but thats not the point was rehearsing on how harsh i gonna be on her maybe imposed late charges and all that be hostile and rude but den when i finally saw her breaking unto a run when she spotted me smiling apologetically and saying sorry i smiled back said its ok, thank you and goodbye with a smile.. all the anger evaporated and i wasnt pissed with her anymore T.T call me stupid, naive, wadsoever haix i am always lidat willing to do anything within my capabilities for everyone i jux need a thanx or a sorry >.< in the end i earned 20$ but spent 3 bucks on transport :( haix dear say i am too nice and i always get cheated but i cant help it :( i want others to be happy too... on the better note i got my new wallet :) a sweet one lolx i noe i am not young le but who cares as long as i like it :p met val and shuyun at westmall today they were having lunch buffet and sakae and waiting for xiang since i had the time i pei them wait for him lo xiang came like an hour plus late?? lolx and he started ordering food as soon as he sat down didnt really chatted a lot with him as i had to rush to tanah merah >.< anyway did a survey again while i was going to BB mrt station this time its abt banks and savings this guy was a whole lot better den the last one and we talk like old frenx laugh and are relaxed at the end he ask if i want to leave my no and email and i told him email will do lolx dun wanna history to repeat itself again :p waiting for dear to finish his attachment and have dinner together i am famished~ *imissyou*

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Sunday, March 25, 2007 at 10:27 PM

when temper flares, words become harsh, the hurt inflicted will always be vast - me wasnt in a good mood for the past 2 days was easily irritated flares up cry throw temper haix is it stress? wad am i stress abt?? i dunno T.T anyways nothing much to blog aso la did some changes to my blog again adopted a cute virtual hammie :) jux like the 2 real ones i had at home :D cute ritex? adopt one too people :) or come often to play with mine with ur mouse :) it will follow the movement of ur mouse when u circle ur cursor on it LOL u can aso left click and hold and bring it up to the running wheel on the background and it will run!!! :p hahax click on the 'more' button and u can pick out a piece of strawberry click on hamham with the strawberry and it will finish the strawberry after 3 clicks :D darned cute larrhh :p short and sweet? shall end here.. *imissyou*

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at 2:35 AM

i was listening to my blog song when i had an inspiration to write another poem cox for me this song make the feeling of lost magnify much much more but suddenly it aso make me realise that wadever poems that i am gonna come out with will nv have a good ending and at this point i left the poem incomplete cox i felt that somehow its the feeling of lost and sadness that will always be the theme of all my poems sad ar?? maybe it because my childhood days arent that happy bahx particularly those in school wadever feeling i had most wadever that i remembered most was of hurt lost heartbrokeness depression maybe it because of my naiveness bahx and i came a long way... actually i am a lot happier now and i noe it cox i noe i have friends who really cares :) i have a dear to rely on forever :D but sad to say a wound healed will always leave a scar behind no matter how small it is even if u didnt see the scar u would remember the pain memories of being hurt wun be forgotten so easily isnt it? wad more i was hurt not physically but hurt in my heart on the outside i may have healed but who can see the shadows of the past inside who can understand? i tried so hard to bury everything and it jux take a song to bring me back to dig out wadever that i had tried so hard to forget thats why u can feel wad i write cox wadever i had written 99.9% of it happened to me *i want to write something that ends happily..but i couldnt cox i haven seen that kind of ending yet..maybe jux not yet... *imissyou*

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at 2:27 AM

Looking back to the times when we would hum the same old song listening to the surrounding sounds and chimes watching the clouds pass all day long Lying on our backs was it on the field or tracks? we talk about our dreams so true about our future and things we gonna do (unfinished & untitled)

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Saturday, March 24, 2007 at 5:55 PM

theres always a rainbow behind every storm u dun see it with ur eyes but with ur heart :) - me finally something can be striked out from my long long desires lolx i got a beautiful shoulder bag and imlovingit :D lolx been doing nthing much busying myself with the sales at my blogshop and stuffs and saving up money so that i can feed myself once i start studying yupx i aint gonna get any more pocket money i mean i am old enough le bahx and my mami and dadi aint rich aso uni sch fees shall be loaned from bank gonna find someway like financial aid or something from e sch that i am gonna attend pocket money wise tink i will save as much as i can now or take up a part time job before and during studying :) time to be independent ^^ procrastinating abt uni applications and all that and recently everyone is asking if i applied uni already anot lolx i was busying myself with work and all mahx >.< haix tink of it i sianx diaox aso lolx but den 1st apr coming le >.< shall find all the informations tml/tonite visit the bank for loan on mon apply on tue bahx lolx time to get it over and done with :p currently not feeling rather well my nose is running and i feel sick zzz waiting for emails for calls and for businesses to come *in the meanwhile, time to eat dinner... *imissyou*

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at 12:43 AM

we will shine, our lil ways, small it may be but its still light - me today was my last day of work again lolx until further notice bahx so monday i wun need to report for work yet :) meet esther and sinkuan at PS after selling a tee went for a short look around at spotlight diaso and the rest of the shops we are all very tired hahax i didnt get anything though nthing caught my eye lolx i love the poem of mine :D hahax i want it to be at the first post but me being me i had to rant something everyday lolx but i tink new poems will be out every now and den bahx hahax cox i am competing with my di :p jux realised that the song that i have changed quite suits the poem lolx coincidence :p if i didnt rmb wrongly this sing is called 'Carols' by Ayumi HAmasaki :D nthing much to say le this weekend is gonna be hectic cox dear having attachments and all that *yawnx* guess it time for bed le >.< *imissyou*

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Friday, March 23, 2007 at 3:32 PM

and so i am bored :p hahax added 2 more stanzas (is this how u spell the word?) ie paras to the poem i wrote yesterday :) can u see the difference if u had read it?? :p *kaes back to work >.< *imissyou*

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Thursday, March 22, 2007 at 5:03 PM

was feeling quite nostalgic thus churn out the poem below in 30min >.< lolx it is ORIGINAL from me and COPYRIGHTED hahax anyways jux feel like saying to all my friends i dun wanna the same thing to happen again i dun wan to lose anymore frenx seriously i lost more den one friend so if one day.. we lost contact.. but we meet up again.. please talk to me.. cox i never hated you.. i was only wishing that u will take the first move...

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at 3:12 PM

i walk down the same old corridoor the corridoor we use to run along it was when we were still small u held my lil hand and walk me down the hall we grew up together u and me telling each other that friends forever we will be went to the same school stuck together like bee and honey daring each other to break the rules, sharing agonies but as we grew up and were in different classes was it me or was it u? we started from waving to nodding and slowly passing without even a glance back when i see u alone needed care to be shown how i wish i was the one but i never was i tried ways and means to get you back ur blog updates i timely check but when i see that life for you was of such fun i felt sad that the girl beside u i am not the one there were rare times when we chatted a few asking each other so wads new i long to ask u are we best friends still but how do i start how would u feel? i wrote u millions of words all tore up into the bin courage diminished defeated and unseen were u thinking the same? the day u went away have u forgotten our promise? the day u went ur way... *written & dedicated to a friend i lost...

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007 at 11:22 PM

take my hands & hold me through - me electricity tripped again in office zzz and only the computers tio T.T so this time its like a blackout with the lights on >.< didnt really disturb me much as i saved my stuffs and it only occurs once :p anyways i gonna take jap lesson!!! yeahs!! hahax not really confirm yet la cox susian dunno can anot yet but den i will go ahead bahx if he cant find other ppl lo hahax i very excited worx i tink i missed school a lot wanna learn loadx of things now details i have now is: venue - CCK CC time - 2 to 3.3pm day - sunday date - 8Apr to 24Jun course fees - 85$ heex :D gonna ask whether got cert anot :) yeah!!! i so happy!!! wootx gonna learn korean after jap bahx :D hahax and i going learn piano from gary wahahax yeah 2 things off my wishlist :p hahax but cant strike off yet cox haven confirm de =x hahax cant wait to strike them off cox my wishlist seems so long!!! and none fulfilled yet wahahax dear is coming back tml :) heex he going for attachment in bukit merah west police post from fri to sun den booking in on tues morning :) bukit merah west NPP that will be where he will be posted to after his NPCO course very near his house too :D very fast 7 months past le 2 years will be gone soon :) i cant wait for dear to be out of NS heex :D *imissyou*

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Tuesday, March 20, 2007 at 10:56 PM

should i jux stop dreaming at all?? - me other den the office having 5 blackouts nearly consecutively theres nothing much dramatic happening today >.< i hate blackouts cox firstly unsaved datas will be lost secondly i need to restart the com everytime the electricity come back thirdly its freaking dark cant even see any fingers T.T so dark that it kinda hurt my eyes >.< but den the electricity always come back very fast so its ok bahx so far theres only one good thing abt blackouts that is... its a very good reason to rest :p hahax so its typing and typing and typing all day with my ipod and me and the computer i am finding ways to motivate myself ie i shall type a 100pages tml!!!! :p lolx its possible lo if i sit there not moving whole day >.< hahax SIM dream seems to be diminishing haix i hope it wun really looking forward to it =/ time to go sleep le hadnt been sleeping well and enough and i got an ulcer on my gum!! rawr** pain sia... *imissyou*

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Monday, March 19, 2007 at 11:12 PM

its our promise :) - me woke up at 10am for a meet up though i slept like at 4am >.< another 25$ :) met up with xiang, esther & ching ting for dinner its a belated birthday celebration for ching ting :) xiang said that there was Jack's Place at Somerset the duck tours there but den we didnt find it there T.T in the end we settle for Village @ Heerens which is exactly the same as mache but jux a different name -.- poor esther was having diarrheoa and keep rushing to the toilet and its all because of her recent china trip >.< we took photos which send all of us laughing cox we each took turn to self take the photo of the 4 of us but failed with hilarious results gave up in the end and asked one of the waiters to take for us :p went home after dinner as esther was like in agony hope she will get well soon :) no mood to blog le i tink i am tired :( *sorry for feeling so sianx dear *imissyou*

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at 12:12 AM

omg omg omg oh my freaking god wahahax i am still like in a state of shock cox WU YUE TIAN was just like 5 steps away from me!!!! YES i saw them in flesh and blood at the carpark of mediacorp with dawn beside me hahax we are trying to get their attention cox they sit by the window den they never pull the curtains they are so cool la and friendly :D but i didnt take any nice pics cox too rush le sobx >.< ah xin.. ma sha.. pin guan.. shi tou.. guai shou.. omg i am still relieving the memory of seeing them the scene keep replaying in my head lolx suddenly i forgot abt Fahrenheit le lolx never thought that i will go so gaga over them but then maybe cox they are so near me yet so far bahx oh my.. this is really a memory worth keeping :p hahax seeing WU YUE TIAN make me forgot abt the hot scorching sun in the afternoon which we had to endure and practice under it and all the rest of the practices + the last minute changes that follows i tink all our efforts are well paid lo cox the performance was nice :D however the donations this year from public was quite a disappointment bahx hmmx maybe singaporeans will need a bit more time?? for me i feel great that i am able to participate in this kind of event cox not only i make friends the experience is priceless and its really when a lil me can put in my lil best to help the thousands of people out there :D anyways i took some pics got WU YUE TIAN but den very blur cox they are on stage den i was on the asile so zoom in le very blur and i had to go out le >.< sianx hahax but den cant upload yet cox my lappie no card reader lolx yupx so today marks the closure of my participation in Renci Charity Show 2007 :) 3 weeks of practices days nights hot sun humid days 136 people 15-60 years old renci volunteers fu hai monastry volunteers NUS science facs (includes all students from diff schs) friends new friends 1 teacher 9 different formations 18 march 2007 a day to remember.. a memory to reminicise.. *because of love, the world will become a better place.. *imissyou*

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Sunday, March 18, 2007 at 1:28 AM

two days of practising for the renci charity show is making me too tired to blog anything about it but den i am having fun though and am excited that the big day is jux in a few hours time :D phew~ finally this project is coming to an end and maybe like wad dawn said we might feel a bit empty after it ends like theres no more practices to go to le lolx mentality of a JJ leader hahax :D anyways we went to mediacorp studio for the full dress rehearsal today saw a lot of local artistes but was quite turned off cox many whom look not non-smokers actually smoke heavily in the end we came up with the conclusion that maybe its because the work is too stress its because of the social circle or cox its jux pure addiction T.T oh well, jux dun like me inhale in the second hand smoke >.< other den that do wad u wish with that cigeratte of urs *imissyou*

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Friday, March 16, 2007 at 1:15 PM

When things get tough, dun worry, cox i will be there, jux a phone number away - me i am so happy & excited!!! lolx i jux earn my first..... 15$!!!! ok la.. not first million but den jux feel happy lor :p its not the first thing that i had sold but the first few are all swaps :p so not counted wahahax the joy of earning money through retailing and seeing the satisfied smile :) maybe cox i myself was unsatisfied with the products i bought on net before bahx was cheated too hahax it sure feels good to noe that someone is happy with something they bought from u :D jux set another deal too another 25$ are rolling in!!!! wahahax maybe thats my line bahx... retailing.. lolx but den i feel like being a designer too hahax i am at the stage of wanting to try a lot of things but not yet knowing wad i really want this is all part of growing up ritex?? >.< lolx was chatting with xiang last night till like ard 4am??!! lolx talk a lot about uni entry and stuffs was kinda tempted by him to take his path too hahax 2 years studying at sentosa campus for diploma in hospitality and tourism management den another 1 and 1/2 years for degree in SIM/NTU and its direct entry too moreover for SIM there will be a 6months internship @ switzerland seems fun ya? hahax but den i will be alone lehx cox xiang gotta go army first if i wanna wait for him its will be like 2yrs wait?? >.< den he ask me use Os result to study 3 years for the diploma so that when i second year it will be his too and we can go switzerland together -.-" rawr* i dunno wad to do!!! wahahax things tat i feel like doing: 1. modelling 2. dancing 3. designing 4. singing 5. learn japanese/korean 6. driving 7. Piano lesson but all this needs the moolarhx (money) lolx if i am able to take a year break i will work and complete all this things lifes just too short to jux do the norm i wanna live a funkier life and with no regrets :D *imissyou*

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Thursday, March 15, 2007 at 11:37 AM

wow..this is such a 'wonderful' day... zzz the fifth freaking making me pissed off thing jux happened i got a prankster on my taggie yet again wth please larhh people who i want to be my mei is none of ur business who i wanna mix with whether its my luck or not is also none of ur business so jux live ur life and leave me and my love ones alone can?? rawr* or will u all be jux too simple minded to understand simple english?? -.-"

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at 10:50 AM

Theres no need to explain to simple-minded people who never seems to understand - me the whole world is going against me!! rawr* firstly last night i got this sms that sounds as though its from my old friend and it goes 'hi chengjoo, hows ur sch holiday?' i was feeling apologetic cox i didnt have this person's no so i replied 'sorry but u are?' and the freaking reply was 'i was that guy whom u do the survey for last last tue??' T.T i was like wth shouldnt have even left my contact no. den cox that guy was damn irritating replied curtly that he got the wrong no and lucky he didnt reply if not i gonna report to the police sia under harressment felt so godamned suay lo >.< left me wondering if i should ever leave my real contact no. if i ever did any surveys ever again secondly i had insomia last night :( and when i finally fell asleep i had to wake up cox i couldnt stop sneezing!! rawr* woke up with swollen eyes (was rubbing them vigorously last night cox they were itchy) and a pimple on my chin >.< thirdly i was getting ready for work but found out that i had tore my contact lense the night before and had to open a new pair when the torn pair was not even half a month old!!! the best thing was i misplaced my new lenses and had to search high and low for it T.T grrr* fourthly when i finally made my way to dover i had to wait freaking half an hour for the bus causing me to be freaking late!!! rawr* i can make it on time de lo :( wad a way to start a seemingly wonderful thursday... *imissyou*

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007 at 1:58 PM

You never know how much u are affecting another until u saw that person changing for you - me woke up feeling groggy sore-throatish and with a pounding head T.T went to sleep a while more after informing joyce that i will reach office late the dinner with the girls yesterday was quite fun we had pastamania @ suntec kaiyan and jeannie didnt turn up though yan was down with food poisoning >.< and jeannie with flu, cough =x get well soon dears :) did some catching ups and talking abt uni entry i envy those who noe wad they had in mind already hahax but like wad joyce says i will find mine too its a matter of time and wad things will be like later :D really thank her a lot for encouraging and advising me :) i am finding my own way in the dark but friends ard me are my lil lights guiding me shining on my path :D thank you all ^^ fell asleep watching full house last night lolx i tink i got to tune back to sleeping before midnight i dun wanna fall sick sia xp *imissyou*

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Tuesday, March 13, 2007 at 3:31 PM

i feel bad cox i have been blogs hopping blogs updating (mine, class's and council's) blogs adding blogs shopping and pure slacking when i should be like data entrying >.< hahax kaes time to go back to my beloved datas~ and yupx btw our blogshop :) support me and cynthia aka sinkuan :D hahax girls stuff though :p *imissyou*

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at 12:42 PM

L.O.V.E is actually everywhere; its whether we felt it anot - me cant believe myself i set 3 alarms my handphone my alarm clock and my mum and den i still can woke up late for work T.T hahax pro sia now tinking of the morning woke up scene damn funny larh cox i very blur den i hear my mum's voice and alarms ringing (clock & handphone) damn chaotic :p lolx rush to work but was still a bit late but its ok la :p heex it wun be regular bahx the lateness hahax gotta sleep earlier tonitex sia >.< *yawnx* keep going to sleep only at 2am is not working hahax the best solution is to go home early watch full house longer (more episodes at 1 go) and sleep earlier and more rest :p hahax anyway last night was damn freaky and it continue to this morning i nearly died >.< cox theres a thing called 'Tagged' its like frenster but more diverse bahx i tink anyway i registered very long time le cox fren invite den its only when got frenx from sch add me den i go add them if not i nv go and bother abt it anyways last night was terrible consecutively like 7 total strangers guys added/msg me to make frenx and for my msn zzz siaox they are old lo like between 21 to 33 zzz and not all chinese lo and seriously i am not FLATTERED i felt DISGUSTED tink if such thing happen once more i gonna delete my account T.T jux tinking of it i can feel goosebumps le >.< at work now taking abreak :p jux finish abt a third of the work given to me yesterday hahax i am feeling happy~ *sometimes i wonder how ppl can be frenx, when somehow we are so different... maybe opposites really attracts bahx... *imissyou*

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at 12:10 AM

looking forward cox the past couldnt be changed - me got back to the same job lolx apparently theres still some data for me to enter hahax a bit not used to it but i woke up for work today still was very tired lack of sleep these days thus was rather restless at work especially when i see the amt of things i got to do lolx the aircon was especially freezing today and lil miss queenie here forgot to bring her jacket along got to endure tiredness, the freeze and aso numbed fingers kept walking out of office for some warmth and to the pantry to make hot milo >.< wad a day went for renci after the agonising hours at work (having stop work for nearly a week make one lazy =x) things went rather well cox everyone noe wad to do le :) the formations the song i tink its quite coordinated bahx hahax fri will be our last pract den sat is the full dress and sun is the day time sure pass first hope that all the hard work that everyone puts in will pay off on the actual day :) and i hope it wun rain :D meeting s20 gals for dinner tml cant wait to see them hahax very long nv gather le lolx ever since results day =x hope time pass faster tml at work hahax i wanna play~ *imissyou*

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Friday, March 09, 2007 at 2:45 PM

tell me help me why am i crying? nothing is making me cry everything is jux listening to songs can make me cry uncontrollably wads happening to me??

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at 12:41 AM

i was hurt too - me jogging was great but still it doesnt change any fact no hope to going KL le another chance gone away how many chances had i given up? how many dreamx mux i give up? how heartbroken am i suppose to be? i understand but so what to me its only meant that i cant do wad i want i understand but its doesnt make me feel any better i understand but u dunno how i really feel i understand but i am tired le tired of hoping den got shattered once again sorry *imissyou*

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Thursday, March 08, 2007 at 7:45 PM

dreamx is shattered once again, should i keep trying? or jux give up? - me got screamed at for jux mentioning that i wanna go KL haix cry lo den can say wad cant go so sianx haix they can never understand i wanna grow up faster sia i wanna fly~ was shouted at for jux sitting there using my laptop cox apparently i am disturbing him from studying haix was shoo-ed to my room where i can find some peace i felt so damn sadded and i am pro la can even disturb someone by sitting at the same place all day dunno should i cry or laugh haix going jogging later with xiang hope will feel better bahx haix too bad my ipod still dun have fahrenheit songs gotta download itunes soon feeling so down, down, down... *imissyou*

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at 3:27 AM

hahax..i noe..its time for bed.. ehx..time long overdued.. but den i re-watch this clip our investiture clip our last project together 8th july 2005 to 5th july 2006 it reminds me of my council term the 21 of us valerene benjamin nattaporn shuyun weibin me sinkuan weixiang jannah shuhui muriel jenny weihoong esther jennifer pearlyn chingting patricia ivan susian amanda how we fought hard overcoming all the tasks given to us we are the smallest team ever theres so few of us that sometimes when i look at the namelist i always tot someones' name wasnt written down but we completed the most tasks.. together.. the release of results brought much tears but there are joys too i sincerely congratx those who did well those who didnt (like me) lets work even harder kaes :) to all of ur future endeavours and path in life i wish u all the very best in my heart i will never forget the team that we were once dear babes and dudes i really treasure u all the friendship shared i hope it will last till forever....thank you so much for the memories.... tonite we remember the time that we spent here the joy and the laughter that we shared.. *do you still remember this song? our song...

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at 2:57 AM

Trust is the most important factor in any/all relationships - me after much difficulty cox of youtube i finally finish episode 8 of tokyo juliet on crunchyroll den sadly episode 9 & 10 cant load rawr* grrr* bang wall* screaming why* T.T on the verge of breakdown* sobx lolx i exaggarating la hahax though very gek but den no choice lo hahax tink hor go find all the dvds/vcds better heex wu zun darn shuai la :p and lucky ariel lin got to kiss him T.T they got so much kissing scenes *mock angry sia* wahahax damn crunchyroll dunno why cant load >.< den dunno when den can continue watch x( going 3 le o? o.O not sleepy yet lehx dunno wad to do too tml will be another slack day lolx or should i say today?? :p hope to find work soon or work come find me soon wahahax for now i shalll rot at home but den also very sianx lehx cox i watch finish hanzkari no kimitachi e le den my tokyo juliet cant continue watch zzz tink later in the day i go find 'Kiss' or 'KO one' to watch no wu zun but den got jiro hahax no choice i got to settle for the second best wahahax jiro fans dun kill me!! hahx k la jiro shuai kaes >.< but zun is the best!!!! muhahax lack of sleep is making me crazy..wahahax :p *imissyou*

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at 12:06 AM

Curiousity kills the cat, Innocence too - me jux got home not long from the renci pract tired sia lolx today we shifted to a public school to practise cox the space is suppose to be bigger (actually not much diff la xp) lolx but den there no aircon not like the monastry so everybody is like hot and sweaty hahax its still quite fun la finally we learned finish all the formations le :D and we used only 3mins to finish everything lolx but now still haven add in song la so its like dry run through everything lo :D tonite i shall chiong tokyo juliet hahax been stuck at episode 7 since very long lolx gotta finish it soon cox i still got so many dramas unwatched!!! now that i am free faster go finish as much as i can lolx :p in a dilemma now too cox hor last year mahx my class gals and some councillors both side got say before want a malaysia trip den hor all didnt confirm time den now suddenly all want go at ard same time zzz class: 18-20mar council: 22-25mar T.T early dun wan go when wan go all go i cant cfm now anyways but i m really excited abt the KL trip hahax i want to go!!! but need see mama and papa allow anot >.< kaes my tokyo juliet load finish le xp hahahax lastly pic of the day (got more de but xiang's phone lousy; his file too big for my hp) : (at practice :) i wore my billabong cap out..for fun :p lolx) *imissyou*

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Wednesday, March 07, 2007 at 3:44 PM

Listening to: Tank's Dong Le Feeling: words cant describe anymore, half sad, half happy?? i dunno Thinking: dreaming of the day my dream will come true Jux finish watching the finale of Hanazakari no kimitachi e other den oh my god its still oh my god hahax i love the story very much sia!!!! gonna buy the vcd and keep once the whole set is out lolx and omg all the songs used tank's, fahrenheit's, s.h.e's all so nice sometimes i envy them hahax cox they are working hard realising their dreamx i wanna be like them hahax but den i am different bahx i dunno whether i will have the chance to my future is so unpredictable sometimes i want to put down everything and chiong ahead recklessly towards my dreamx but den i got a lot of things thats tying me down my family my love i dun wan to throw them aside and fulfill my dreamx its selfish but den deep down i really wanna try cox i ams till so young i fell like doing something crazy cox thats wad teenagers should be like isnt it? wads the point of studying so much but at the end of the day when i am 80 years old den i start regretting not trying to fight for wad i really wanted in my younger days suddenly i got a lot of crazy ideas now like to become a model an artiste to be part of a group like fahrenheit to act in a drama ming xing meng i dun wanna be a simple gal anymore maybe 10 years down the road i will laugh at myself for my childishness immaturity for my childlike dreamx but den for now i noe thats wad i really want bahx *dunno why..tears are rolling down my cheeks again..wad am i crying for..i dunno anymore..is it for my hard to fulfill dreamx?..sobx... *imissyou*

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at 1:19 AM

Saw this in my email and i thought that it was very heart warming :D reminds me of the innocent & funfilled childhood days ^^ Fond memories For those who born in the 70s and 80s : 1. You grew up watching He-man, MASK, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget, Ninja turtles, My Little Pony and Smurfs too. 2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug.The teachers said you must brush each side 10 times too. 3. You know what SBC stands for. 4. You pay 40 cents for Chocolate or Strawberry MILK every week in class. 5. You watch a very popular Malay dubbed Japanese drama on RTM1 about schoolgirls who possess powerful skills in volleyball called Meoro Attack. (me: i dunno at this but i sure remember a cartoon called 'Captain Planet' xp) 6. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school. 7. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEP! when pressed. There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses.The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole in the ticket. 8. Envelopes given to us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day. 9. You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable. 10. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery. 11. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50 &@%#$*@#$^*!@#&^$ 12. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls. 13. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street. 14. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka (20 cents per pack),and Ding Dang (50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring. 15. You watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you. 16. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers . 17. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives. 18. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'super white'...you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative. 19. Catching was the IN thing and twist as the magic word. 20. Your English workbooks was made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow. 21. CDIS were your bestfriend. 22. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellised characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you maths. 23. Waterbottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go. 24. Boys loved to play soccer with small plastic balls in the basketball court. 25. Teng-teng, five stones, chapteh, hentam bola and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too... 26. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fish. 27. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks. Even Mr Wally & Mr Yakki. What abt Miss Lala??? And Zaki and Tini in Malay Textbooks. 28. We carry out experiments of our own to get yourself badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc. 29. Every Children's day and National day you either get pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with 'Happy National Day 1994'. 30. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big sister and brother. 31. We wear BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes. 32. Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English. 33. The worksheets were made of brown rough paper of poor quality. 34. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes. 35. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm. 36. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday. 37. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday. 38. You see Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall. 39. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl. 40. Boys like to catch fighting spiders. 41. Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys. 42. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me Not", and small poems like "Birds fly high, hard to catch.Friend like you, hard forget". 43. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!" 44. There were at least 40 people in one class. 45. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried. 46. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.

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at 12:56 AM

A fresh Start - me finally i got myself to change the long overdued blogskin hahax nice ritex dunno why i love the word evil hahax xp maybe somehow i wanna myself to be wilder bahx lolx too guai le :p the blog song a bit dun suit this blogskin le but den its a nice song and there are request to not to change the song :) anyways since i haven had a song in mind to change it to true colors shall stay put :D heex its going to 1am but i dun feel sleepy yet hahax the sense of accomplishment in editing my blogskin is keeping me high lolx the new blogskin shall kick start the start of my new journey in life a brand new start a start of something new whatever the case its a new me :) *imissyou*

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007 at 11:23 PM

Listening: Fahrenheit's songs :D Feeling: relax Thinking: the future today is my last day of work cox i finally have no more data to type le hahax but den they will call me soon if there are still work hope to go back hahax dun feel like slacking at home though i need rest hahax cox i need income!! no more pcoket money le u noe >.< lolx if not always go out also quite sianx xp actually dun have much to blog abt la hahax cox i am like slacking away listening to my favourite boy band hahax they are so shuai >.< lolx cant help gushing and going gaga over them i am still young kaes hahax can have idols de lo :p tml is wed another renci pract at night hahax we are finishing the formation le tink gonna add music soon :) cant wait hahax it gonna be a nice performance :D mux support kaes by calling the donation line :) for me and for all the people performing and especially the needy patients!!! they need our help and i feel that as people who are more fortunate den them we should do as much as we can to help the needys :) i am excited abt the renci show 18 mar the actual day hope that it wun rain the performance will be a success!!! :D *will Fahrenhiet be there? i doubt so...as much as i ope they will come >.< *imissyou*

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at 12:42 PM

1242pm :) Taking the first step is the most difficult thing but without the courage to do it a dream will always remain as a dream - me dreaded coming to work today cox i noe my colleagues will ask abt my results and true enough they came one by one asking me how i fare and i gave them the same reply bad really bad haix den Evelyn told me thats its ok cox she was in the same boat as me den in her A level days she didnt do well too and she told me about her experience and stuffs she told me not to worry and that i can do it :) she make me laugh and smile and i was really relax for the first time in these few days really thank her a lot :D Richard talk to me too and ask me about wad i plan to do he told me about his niece and nephews and wished me luck :) and after that i felt really xin fu and happy cox they dun really noe me they dun need to go the extra mile to talk and share with me but they did they encouraged me on gave me strength :D thank you ^^ i will go on perservere and prove to them and myself that i can pull through sometimes i may be depressed and fall down on the road of life but the road is still long i cant let those people who believed in me down i need to be strong :) jiayou chengjoo :D you noe you can if you wan! *back to work >.< *imissyou*

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